I can recall thousands of instances that would support the idea that my self-confidence has lived in the toilet for most of my life. Not to mention, I just feel it. I’m always beating myself up for something or another – feeling stupid… putting my foot in my mouth… thinking I’m “less than” everyone around me.
But my ego is larger than life. I really think I can do just about anything I set my mind to, and I’ve proven that a few times over the years, too.
I’ve always felt like I was a little bit “special” and I believe I am on a spiritual path which is beyond the average person’s understanding and comprehension (so I tend to condescend frequently, which I guess is not so spiritual after all), although I have met people who operate on the same “frequency” as I do, and we seem to connect instantly.
Basically, I’m full of myself, but I don’t like myself, which makes for a very uncomfortable living situation.
What am I going to do with my Self?