This is what my new home looked like the last time I saw it. I stood in the middle of this room and almost threw up. I was completely overwhelmed, and I haven’t been back since.

On Tuesday morning I will see it in its completion for my walk-through. I hope I don’t pass out.

Friday morning will bring one final walk-through, and then I will sign my name 1,000 times on as many papers and the thing will be mine. All mine.

I don’t know how to handle this vast amount of gratefulness. It’s knocking me off my feet.

I’ve been a busy girl researching and making perfect purchases, scheduling deliveries, packing and planning, and oh yeah – that job thing is sucking up a lot of my time now, too.

The other day, a friend of mine told me how many days it was until Christmas, and he suggested that I start figuring out where I’ll put my tree. I couldn’t even let my mind wander to that place – that Christmas dream place where everything is clean and bright and warm and tiny white lights flicker everywhere you look. Christmas music floating through the rooms… a fire in my fireplace… hand-writing notes on my Christmas cards at my kitchen desk – or maybe my office desk…

I feel myself becoming more amenable to being social. I even let the idea of a dinner party pop into my head for a brief period of time. Overnight guests… neighbors popping in… I think I’m ready for that – my old life as an entertainer, sans the drunken husband and the crazy-making Martha Stewart show-off.

I need people now. I need them like I need air. I’m ready to invite them in.

3 Comments on “I Don’t Wanna Be Lonely No More

  1. The Christmas tree goes in the corner to the right of the fireplace. That way the lights will be visible through two windows… welcoming.~Keith

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