Month: September 2008

Sex (Over) Drive

My sex drive is completely unpredictable. Today, I was driving home from work in the car and nearly had an orgasm in the middle of 295 just thinking about sex. But for 6 months, I can disconnect and rarely think of it at all (and not miss it too much, either). What triggers that? Hormones? I’ve always seemed to have a higher drive than … Read More Sex (Over) Drive

All I Know is that I Don’t Know Anything

I’m down 4 pounds and I feel relaxed, even though I’m still busy. Don’t ask, because I don’t know why or how. I’m still biting the insides of my mouth as I type this post, but my insides are not emitting electric pulses that make me feel all itchy and uncomfortable. My insides are relatively quiet. What is different about this week? One big … Read More All I Know is that I Don’t Know Anything

I’m Lost

I just read through that last post, and I don’t even recognize myself. Where did I go? I’ve been building layers and layers of protection, both emotionally and physically. Now, my Self is lost, buried deep within the self-made walls. Sometimes I think she wants to come out, but other times, I can’t even find her. This week she has been scratching my insides … Read More I’m Lost

A Day in the Life of Me

5:00 a.m. – Alarm goes off. I roll over and fumble for the snooze button as a voice in my head says shit. 5:10 a.m. – Snooze is over. Damn it. I press it once more just in case I fall asleep again. 5:15 a.m. – Finally drag my tired ass out of bed and stumble into my new bathroom. Step on the scales. … Read More A Day in the Life of Me

Next…

I can’t believe how hard it is to find a decent man to take me out to dinner or to the movies. Geesh. I’m not looking for a soul mate… not interested in sharing my bed or my bathroom or my closets… I just want to go out and enjoy someone’s company, and I don’t want to have to take an airplane ride to … Read More Next…