Everything hurts – my body, my spirit, my mind. I’m wiped out and trying to figure out how to push through it and keep moving forward.
You’d think with all the fucking disappointments I’ve had in my life, I would be able to handle this one easily.
I mean, a couple of weeks ago, I had no plans to see the Belgian in Greece, and I was doing just fine. Nothing has changed, so why do I suddenly feel like shit?
I’m incredibly sad, and I’ve been fighting the tears all day in my attempt to continue to function as usual. No time for sadness.
What can I do for myself to return to that optimistic state of mind? I considered braving the trip alone, but I just don’t think I could bear it.
Sometimes I just don’t get my way, and it’s okay, I tell myself.