Month: October 2010

Ode to Joy

I think I have writer’s block. I’ve written from a painful place for so long… I don’t know how to write from joy. Happy moments have come and gone – like spikes of extreme emotions that are rare and short-lived, but I can’t remember having such a long, sustained period of time where I felt so good. I’m not complaining. Maybe I’m afraid that … Read More Ode to Joy

Hello, Happiness

Long, heavy sigh… I am exceptionally happy. Stars, planets, and chakras are aligned. It’s a good life. Sometimes, the Universe pulls a fast one on me. Exhausted and recovering from several months of unbelievable stresses, I was content enough just to see the rash disappear and feel the electricity-flow in my body subside. And I was grateful. But the good stuff was unexpected, and, … Read More Hello, Happiness

By the Light of the Moon

Last night, I took a late run under the dim light of a crescent moon, scattered streetlights, and assorted glowing orange holiday décor. It was magnificent. My first full run without knee pain for many months, this one was memorable for other reasons, too. My body was hesitant – stepping timidly at first. My feet know the way on autopilot, but not being able … Read More By the Light of the Moon

Faithful Food

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationships – past and present and future. I feel a little bit sad. I want to believe that my marriage to Mr. N/A turned me into a temporary cynic, because I don’t want to believe that this is all there is. I hope I’m just having a hard time opening up my heart to meet that … Read More Faithful Food

Let’s Hear it for the Girls

Today was… beautiful – a beautiful, dark, rainy, chilly day. And I am happy. I like being happy. It sure beats the alternative. Saturday night I had a few drinks in Princeton with a trendy, smart, very attractive woman who happened to participate in the hiring interviews for my current job. She has since moved on to other things, and we took this opportunity … Read More Let’s Hear it for the Girls