Month: December 2012

2012 – A Love Story

Tonight’s the night to reflect on the past year and take note of the good, the bad, and the wonderful.   And I’m so very grateful for the wonderful.   I’ve been blogging for years about my “ah ha” moments and my personal growth and challenges, but I believe 2012 marks clearly the beginning of a new chapter in my life when I’ve finally brought into … Read More 2012 – A Love Story

Perplexing Sex

Following my company Christmas event, I find myself debating the age-old Good Lisa vs. Bad Lisa issue – again.   I spent a month in preparation.  I chose a short black retro-style dress with a cotton lace overlay and 3/4 –length bell sleeves.  I set a new record for my heel-height with gorgeous peep-toe platform stilettos from Steven Madden.  Jewelry was sparkling and simple and … Read More Perplexing Sex

It’s Not the End of the World

As 2012 draws to a close, I’m in a reflective mood.  This year, I practiced living in the moment and staying more present and awake.  I experienced the sensation of opening myself up and being receptive to living in Love.  I know what it feels like to choose Love over Fear.  I pushed my limits – hard – and surprised myself.  I got stronger.  … Read More It’s Not the End of the World

Pinch Me

I feel like I’ve just been gushing and repeating myself to the point of exhaustion.  I’m happy, and it makes no sense at all to me.  I really shouldn’t feel this good. A few good friends, family, a confidant or two… trusting the Universe… feeling safe enough to be open and honestly myself… I think these are the ingredients for a happy life. It’s … Read More Pinch Me

Happy Holidays

I’m a happy little thing tonight.  I have 10 minutes to write, and then it’s gift-wrapping and bed.  I didn’t want to go to the gym today.  I almost didn’t.  It’s dreary and cold, and I just didn’t want to go out in it.  Coach was offsite, and I was on my own.  I pulled myself together, repeated the Nike mantra, “Just do it,” … Read More Happy Holidays

Dashing Through the… Rain

Before dawn I drifted in and out of consciousness and dreamed about the consequences I might suffer if I tried to squeeze in 2 hours of running on this very busy Christmas-prep day.  When I finally woke for real, I winced at the all-too familiar tingling in my extremities and my racing heart – anxiety.  It used to be the norm, but now I’d … Read More Dashing Through the… Rain

Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree

Another good day in the Christmas countdown.  The kids and I headed over to the local tree farm down the street and selected a perfect Korean Fir for the family room amidst ridiculous silliness and merriment.  My kids are so cool.  Those are the kinds of Christmas moments you can’t possibly plan, although we have a pretty good track record with our Christmas tree … Read More Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree

Muscles and Men

I’m super-excited, because it’s Friday, my daughter is home, and tomorrow begins a big week packed with lots of holiday celebrations.  I have a lot to do to prepare. My fitness regimen is high on the priority list since fitting into my party dress is critical.  Today at the gym, Coach challenged me to a clean and press with the big bar and seemed … Read More Muscles and Men

Happy Heart

Every time I feel really happy lately, I think, “This is it.  Surely it just doesn’t get any better than this.”  And then it does.  It seems the more I open my heart, the more happiness it can hold.  It’s fantastic.  I think I made big progress this week in learning to love in the face of fear.  I feel great about that, and … Read More Happy Heart

Love is Everything

I felt numb when I woke up out of a fitful sleep of strange nightmares.  I re-examined my feelings in the shower – still nothing.  I felt empty.  All morning I tried to figure it out – was I going to open up or shut down?  It was anyone’s guess.  I tried so hard to stay calm, even when I felt afraid.  I went … Read More Love is Everything

Fucking Around

Jmong Photography I’m just so fucking angry… and hurt.  And I don’t know how to behave.  I want to be a big baby and pout and sulk.  I want to tell my tales of woe and misery from the comfort of my pity pot.  I want to go radio-silent and ignore and become unresponsive.  I want to punish.  I want to hurt.  I want … Read More Fucking Around

All that Glitters is Not Gold

My head was loud with the sound of heavy machinery today as construction began on some protective walls I’ve decided to erect.  I’m using solid, quality materials that should keep out the riff-raff and allow me to build my fairy-tale kingdom in peace. There will be running paths – miles and miles of running paths.  And turquoise beaches, because I find serenity there.  The … Read More All that Glitters is Not Gold