Every time I feel really happy lately, I think, “This is it. Surely it just doesn’t get any better than this.” And then it does. It seems the more I open my heart, the more happiness it can hold. It’s fantastic.
I think I made big progress this week in learning to love in the face of fear. I feel great about that, and the results are very motivating. It feels beautiful not to hate myself.
I feel shining and bright and sparkling and full of light – sort of like a Christmas tree. 🙂
I came out of my marriage 7 years ago feeling dazed and completely uncertain in my own decision-making. I’ve spent a lot of time since then trying to figure out what’s the “right” thing to do or say in every circumstance. I like to be right. It’s agonizing to want to do everything perfectly all the time, and the grey areas can leave me paralyzed. I like black and white.
Along the way, I’ve learned various lessons, such as:
- Everything will work together for good.
- Every choice is worth my while
- Go with your gut.
Today, I can say I’m not one step closer to discovering any earth-shattering rules about how to live a good life. I have absolutely no idea what is right or wrong in any given situation, because it always depends. Stealing – wrong. Stealing a loaf of bread from a bountiful table to feed a starving child – heroism. What a stressful word we live in.
But one thing I know for sure (as Oprah would say) is that I desire to live in Love. I believe that if I can remain open instead of yielding to fear, all of those worrisome decisions will melt together into a happy heart.
Yes, I’m convinced of that.