Honey, I went to the doctor today…
I rarely visit the doctor unless it’s for my dreaded annual “girl” checkup. It’s not that I’m afraid of doctors, I just don’t get sick, and I prefer to take charge of my own basic medical care unless it’s something baffling and I need professional assistance. In other words, I’m not one to run to the doctor with a sore throat or a sniffle.
But my recent symptoms were stumping me, and the vomiting was sort of cramping my style. I knew it wasn’t the flu. So today I finally asked for help, and I think we’ve got it narrowed down to something relatively simple to fix. That’s what I like – diagnosable problems with clear answers.
Too bad Life can’t be that easy.
I love my doctor. She is bright and modern and holistic in nature. She decided to rule out some more serious issues, like a heart problem, and she hooked me up for my first EKG. She said I had a beautiful heart. She told me that a normal heart rate was between 60-100 beats per minute, and my heart was beating at 42 – that I have an “athlete’s heart.” And that right there made me smile from my toes for so many reasons, but to see proof that my training is changing my body on the inside and requiring my heart to work less was just so inspiring. That, and she called me an athlete. Me. An athlete!
Today’s news made my recent half-marathon race time even more palatable to me, since I most likely ran the thing while I was experiencing the onset of this health issue. I can’t wait to see how much I can improve my running once I am completely healed. That’s kind of exciting.
My body was talking to me the whole time, and I didn’t understand what it was telling me. The only thing I knew for sure was that running made me (and my body) very happy. And while the rest of the world was telling me the solution to my fatigue and digestive issues was to stop running so much, I didn’t listen. I did what made my body happy. And it really was okay, because running wasn’t the problem.
I researched my diagnosis and surprisingly found this little gem, “A feeling of anxiety or of ‘impending doom’ has also been described [by some].” It absolutely amazes me how connected the mind, body, and spirit really are. What a miracle.
I’m relieved to think that this time the battle should be easily won over the course of the next couple of weeks, and that my body and my head will be back to “normal,” whatever that is. Lately, for me, it’s happy and joyful and full of Love.
I’m super-excited to return to work and to the gym tomorrow to see what a difference a new attitude and a doctor’s visit makes.
I really feel so much better already. I think I’ll go for a little run to celebrate.