Month: May 2013
Don’t Worry, Be Happy
by Lisa Jo
It feels so good to feel so good. Today was Arm Day. I really think it demands a reverent “Holy” in front of it. At least I can say I was still mostly calm – except for my favorite part that always charges me up. Nothing I can do about that except enjoy the ride. Holy Arm Day should be forever memorialized by a … Read More Don’t Worry, Be Happy
Eye of the Hurricane
by Lisa Jo
He told me he could tell the minute I walked onto the gym floor; I was calm. He was right. The long run saved me. Coach’s face-reading skills are impressive. I left my worries and my upset out there on the trail, and today I feel like I can face the world again. Nothing has changed, of course, as Coach reminded me, but certainly … Read More Eye of the Hurricane
Dirty German
by Lisa Jo
A Dirty German pulled me back from the edge of despair yesterday. It was a stupid decision on many levels to run that race. I had never trained for the distance, my hip is still healing, and after 3 weeks of barely running (or any other cardio), my fitness level felt compromised. But I showed up. Just show up. I wanted to run the … Read More Dirty German
Broken, but Still Good
by Lisa Jo
Yeah, still good. Despite my best efforts today, none of my tools seemed to pull me out of my worry and Fear. I dumped on someone I care about – I hate doing that. But I recognize that I’m reaching my limits, and I’m just stuck. I don’t know how to help myself. I’m doing all the wrong things – focusing on the negatives, … Read More Broken, but Still Good
Progress, not Perfection
by Lisa Jo
It’s only Friday and I already checked off two items on my Pull Yourself Together list. I completed Part 1 of my Home Depot project, which, by the way, was not as easy as the DIY video made it seem. Plus, it was 57 degrees and raining – not exactly the conditions depicted in the clip. I’m not sure how fulfilling the process was, … Read More Progress, not Perfection
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Long Weekend
by Lisa Jo
I kicked off my Memorial Day Weekend with an early-morning trip to Home Depot. The parking lot was mostly empty except for a few expected contractors and a couple of bored old ladies who’d probably been up for hours. I decided I needed a creative project to occupy my fidgeting hands and to distract my wandering mind. I found my materials and casually waved … Read More Long Weekend
Back to School
by Lisa Jo
The past few days have been one hell of a ride, but I landed on my feet with a smile on my face, even if there’s a residual tickle in my tummy. I don’t remember a lot of details. I was pretty focused on one specific idea and I had to work very hard to reel myself back in for a reality check. I … Read More Back to School
Wanted
by Lisa Jo
This afternoon I did a poor job of staying in Love, and I let Fear grab me. Fear brings the most horrible emotions with it – rejection, disappointment, victimization and a demanding attitude. I don’t want any of those to possess my heart. Sometimes I get so locked in on something I want – something that just sounds way too good to be true … Read More Wanted
Sexual Healing
by Lisa Jo
Looking back over my past big relationships, it’s interesting that sex (lack of) was a major issue in all of them. Whether it was distance, lack of interest on his part, or other things, I never seemed to match up with my partner in terms of frequency or fulfillment. During this time of self-imposed celibacy, I’ve thought about it a lot, actually, and I … Read More Sexual Healing
Here We Go…
by Lisa Jo
This weekend was too short, but I’m looking forward to whatever the new week brings my way. As long as I can keep Fear at bay and stay with Love, nothing can hurt me. Nothing. The near future promises more changes – I’m a little breathless. Still lots of unknowns, but I’m doing my best to trust the Universe and open up to the … Read More Here We Go…
Hair of the Dog
by Lisa Jo
Today’s 5k in the local country vineyards was a confidence-builder and a learning experience. It truly was a taste of the hair of the dog that bit me – in this case, the New Jersey Marathon. After 11 non-running days due to a strained hip muscle and other assorted shit, I haven’t felt too secure in my running improvements that I’ve made this year. … Read More Hair of the Dog
