I assumed my appropriate position on the porch this evening with the usual accessories.  After a couple of rounds of Candy Crush Saga, I just sat back and cried because I’m so fucking happy.  I’m telling you, it’s getting serious, this happiness thing.  Damn.

I don’t quite know what to do with it all.  I’m losing the battle to a voracious appetite lately, and my weight has ballooned to an uncomfortable point.  Usually it’s stress that makes me eat, and yes, I do have some of that, but what am I supposed to do with all of this happiness?  Where do I put it?  I’m so afraid I’ll blink and it will be midnight, and I’ll step on a pumpkin with a bare foot.

Where did this come from?  How did I get here?  I’ve never been in this place before in all my life, and I don’t understand it.  Sometimes it completely overwhelms me.  Well, most of the time it does.  And just when I think I’m at max capacity, something else happens that sends me soaring even further.

One minute it’s quiet and sweet and calm, and the next I feel like it will swallow me up in a frenzy and I would go willingly. 

It’s crazy.  Honestly.  Just crazy.

I always assumed Life’s lessons would be painful, hard, and ugly.  What if my lesson is to learn how to handle happiness?  Poor me, huh?

I don’t know why I’m here, now.  But I am positively intoxicated, and it’s not the tequila kind. 

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