Month: July 2013

Everything Will Be Is Okay

Today I wanted to throw my arms around Love’s neck and plant wet kisses all over its face.  I’m trying to exhale, but my body is still holding on to the stress which became my everyday comfort zone for awhile.  It’s okay to let it go now.  For most of the past 20 years (probably more), drama was the fuel that fed my life.  … Read More Everything Will Be Is Okay

Sunflowers

I lived most of the years leading into second grade in a townhouse on the west side of Indianapolis.  We had a small fenced-in patio with a tiny patch of earth where my father would plant all kinds of things. The patio was the home for many of Dad’s souvenirs from his hunting trips that my mother wouldn’t let inside the house.  Once we … Read More Sunflowers

If the Shoe Fits

I just finished a bath fit for a princess.  I soaked in Lavender-infused Epsom salts, scrubbed my skin with a Lush concoction that made me smell like a margarita beside the sea, and applied a cooling clay mask to my over-worked feet. Ahh… My nails are done to perfection in a pale, chalky pink.  My pantry and fridge are filled with healthy delights in … Read More If the Shoe Fits

Breathe In, Breathe Out

I breathed deeply – really deeply – today for the first time in awhile.  Coach recognized the change in me before I could put my finger on it, but I knew I felt more relaxed, happy, and present.  When I’m numbed out, I don’t know what I’m missing – I only know I’m uncomfortable.  But god, I wouldn’t miss a moment of this beautiful … Read More Breathe In, Breathe Out

Blush

Ah… That’s the sound of a beautiful heavy sigh of relief and relaxing into a very comfortable place.  Blanket in hand, I’m settling in for a big dose of happy contentment. Today was Holy Arm Day, and someone should be in Confession for missing 2 weeks in a row.  I suggest an appropriate penance of a dozen sets on the Preacher Curl machine.  Afraid … Read More Blush

Color my World

I’m standing on the edge of change, and it’s exhilarating and uncomfortable.  I don’t know what it looks like on the other side.  It’s so tempting to burrow down into a warm spot and just hang on until the ride comes to a stop, but at this stage of the game, I know it’s a better idea to throw my face out the window … Read More Color my World

Happy Hunger

Today was tough from the very beginning, but everything turned around in the final hours, and I’m going to bed a very happy and content woman. I headed out shortly after dawn for 6 miles in high heat and humidity.  It took its toll, but I survived the run, stomach issues and all, and as usual I felt better for having done it. I … Read More Happy Hunger

Safe and Sound

I’m feeling a little bit lost lately, but I insist on keeping up with my running program for that imaginary marathon I haven’t yet scheduled.  Running has proven to be one of my very best friends in this decade, and I don’t think I can afford to miss the emotional makeover it brings to me every time I lace up my shoes. My weight … Read More Safe and Sound

Fun.

Today’s schedule called for 8 miles for this step-back week, but I didn’t feel like stepping back – I wanted to step up.  So I did 12 instead, but I did fun miles.  The first half was fairly uneventful.  I stopped at the end of mile 6 to towel down, water up, and snap some photos of the local characters, one of which decided … Read More Fun.

Marching On

Today I visited the local wholesale club, and I watched the cars filing in and out of the marketplace like ants on a mission to go get “stuff” and take it back to the nest.  Sometimes I wonder if we are more like these tiny insects than we know.  Are we oblivious to the bigger picture that surrounds us?  Traveling up and down highways … Read More Marching On

Peace Out

The words aren’t coming, but I hate to skip my evening writing. I am filled up with a “peace that passeth all understanding.”  I’m frustrated in my attempts to describe it – I just can’t.  I can only say how it makes me feel, using metaphors and common words that really don’t tell the whole story. I’ve never felt as happy as I have … Read More Peace Out

Power Up

Authentic power.  Big stuff. I get it.  I really get it.  This is the story I’ve been trying to tell for awhile now, but I never associated the choosing with power, but rather, simply the ecstasy of living in Love. I have been feeling strong, but powerful doesn’t seem like the right word.  Centered, grounded, strong, invincible, safe, happy, full of joy… those words … Read More Power Up